5 posts tagged “sean”

sorry for being a bit MIA!

life has been busy busy busy. (isn't it always?) well more so than normal. and complicated. it good ways mostly though.

I am 18.5 weeks along. and STILL sick!! arg. but definitely better. I'm still on meds to keep it under control but I hope to be off of them soon. I will continue to take herbs probably through out.

we're doing good in PA. money is about non-existent. but i realize a lot of my friends are in that boat too. so while it's a crappy boat to be in, it's not all together lonely hehe. I hate money. or it hates me maybe. it's bittersweet like that.

Sean likes his job which is always a good thing! he can work from home some of the time which we all love. it's so nice to see him sitting at the desk as we go on about our day. it feels familiar and right. it's just how we all function best it seems. we're work from home kinda people. no money in the world could take the place of that one!

we haven't found a home church yet. still looking. lots of nice people here, but i haven't made any true friends yet. lots of nice acquaintances though. people from a local church helped us out SO much by bringing us meals while I was really ill. what a wonderful help that was!! I am forever thankful =) there isn't always the perfect way to say "thank you" but I will never forget their kindness. I don't know what we would have done otherwise.

it is snowing today. flurries right now, but I wonder what else is to come. it's only November 20th!! our first snow (though it didn't stick) was November 18th. that's the earliest snow I've ever seen I think!

I wont be doing any doula work for quite some time. none while pregnant or with a newborn. and we will just see where it goes after that. family life is my first priority and i like it that way. right now I have no sitters to watch while i'm with a mom anyhow, so it wouldn't even be possible. Sean's job is flexible for sure, but he still has to actually work heh.

ack how does morning come so soon? I do think the earlier I aim to get to sleep the later I do. I went to bed before 11pm (early for me) and I ended up sleeping by 12:30 and then Ei woke me at 1:30 crying with a terrible headache and feeling terrible all over. ugh! I was so tired at that point i could not make a coherent sentence. so our conversation goes something like this:

E: "mom? :::sniff sniff::: I feel horrible all over and my head hurts"

M: "what? what? ummmm what? oh man! me tired! head hurts why? why?? what you need?"

E: I don't know! i just feel bad!!!! :::crying begins:::

M: [trying to pull it together] why? why?.... um why? I'll get you come motrin. kitchen!

and then I try to make it to the kitchen without falling over b/c my eyes wont seem to open all the way. eventually he slept on the floor beside my bed on some cushions so I could keep an eye in him. every 40- 60 mins I was awake checking on him... convinced he was dying, or ill. convinced b/c i was so tired I overlooked some terrible thing he must have. that's not restful sleep!! then right before I wake up with Sean at 6:40 as he had to leave for a shoot in DC, I dream I have to take over the shoot for him b/c he's sick... and it occurs to me I don't know where it is, or what it is of... or HOW TO USE THE CAMERA!! and I start freaking out! and then I wake up for good at 6:30.

ugggggg

can't wait til tonight. if anyone gets between me and some decent sleep - then off with their head!